very confused.

happy, but not

very, very confused. 

MATHS REVISION IS THE BAIN

OF MY FUCKING LIFE.

Haha just had a very embarrassing experience. Have to give out cakes at the end of this 

singing thing that i'm in, whilst singing. And I tripped up and launched this cake straight

into this womans face. Wowie she looked very happy.

have a funny picture of me and my sister, looking fly on our way to dance.

You had my heart

 and soul in your hand

 and you played it 

to the beat.

Boys confuse me. They do. I could say I hate them, but that my friend would be one great massive lie. Would be cool if boys stopped mind-fucking and just stopped playing annoying games. Well, really it's always particular guys. Nothing goes right for lil Het over here!

happy fathers day dad, you fantastic man <3 

I sit and wait, does an angel 

contemplate my fate? And do they know,

 the places where we go when we're grey and old?

Cos I've been told that salvation, lets their wings unfold 

so when I’m lying in my bed. Thoughts running through my head.

And I feel that love is dead. I’m loving angels instead.

And through it all, she offers me protection, 

a lot of love and affection, whether I’m right or wrong.

 And down the waterfall, wherever it may take me

 I know that life wont break me, when I come to call. 

She wont forsake me

 I’m loving angels instead 

Not alot has been happening recently. Well apart from the fact i'm in this professional opera so I literally have no time to do anything. this week I've been practising from four til tenish every day and it's crazy. Then I have seven shows next week. i'm absolutely knackered and pretty much have no voice left. But on the other hand, I only have on exam left on the 24th of June so I'm so nearly completely free to just chill. Actually I'd like to say I'm revising loads and have no time to 'chill' now, but that would be a massive lie. There's so many things I have planned already this summer and I'm so fucking excited. I would have a birthday meal on Saturday but hey ho got fucking opera haven't I. Then I have a party on the 25th, party on the 28th, spa on the 29th with Mumma Han and Briddddd, prom on the 30th, party at mine after prom, party on the 31st at Anna's house. That's just next week and the week after. Buzzzzzing! Things are really good at the moment <3 Have a cute picture of me and Annananan yesterday at Deniz's cute picnic.

some people are so confusing
it's really hard to know what to do
hm. need some han advice.

Well this is my Saturday night sorted.

Fings dat i luv 2k11

Mmm hmmmm, Hannah is the best and I love her loads. I especially love teaching her maths and laughing at her because she is so utterly shit. I also love looking at the Topshop website and describing all of the clothes I want in a really weird voice and making Han wet herself. The last thing that I love doing is leaving Hannah with my computer watching her favie baby Richard Hammond on Top Gear while I go in the shower and sing really loudly. Study Leave <3

Catch up's

with people

you miss

are pure bliss.

<3

Holt music festival actually makes my life a million times better. Actually spending time with people that you love to pieces, who you know incredibly well and have known for a very long time is just superrrrrr! No arguments or two faced bitchiness, or people thinking that they are better than everyone else, just a group of close friends who get on extremely well.

After repeatedly dancing and singing opera for nearly six hours and then travelling a total  of five hours in a hot stuffy car in 28 degrees of heat in a minibus with windows that don't work and air con that's completely broken, a bus driver who stunk the bus out with smoke and radio four, I was in fact, in desperate need for a drink. So we started the evening by going to a field  planning to get incredibly drunk - but unfortunately, as always we were drunk by about 9 o'clock and completely sober by 11. Typical that is. But we laughed and danced and just had such a good night, spent the evening with guys that I haven't spoke to in years, and that was just absolutely lovely. After my last bit of alcohol was stolen (grr) we left and all went to the pub, good old Ham Tree, and chilled in there for a while, and then after rounds of table dancing and screaming 'jimmy newtron' we were kicked out as the pub closed and went to sit on the historical holt ham green bench for abit and then we walked home with Ed, Rhys, Ellie and 'Olly Wood'. Not his real name, but it's still an incred name. Got back to Hannah's and chilled. And slept. Yum, sleep.

Han, Lyd, Ott, Edie, Katie, Sarah, Mia, Shannon & Lauren you're stars. <3 

That terrible moment when facebook kindly

tells you 'the person you're madly in love with

is in a relationship with someone whose quite

obviously a million times better than you in 

every single way.' Oh dear. I definitely don't

 relish those moments one bit.