Why?

I'm in a mega weird mood tonight. School was ok, until French and Dutton was being a nob and me and Ottie had too keep shouting at him. And then i kept singing out loud which was really quite embarrassing, French put me in a shittttt mood. So, came home and went straight to Han's after school and we just chilled and watched Being Human which was disgusting!! But then we made a list of everything that we had to achieve by the time we went home, which was do art, do English, do geography, sort out London, and sort out Yorkshire (<3). We talked about London for ages, and then Brid came home and we booked the tickets yay, and she gave us a little fashion show of all the new clothes she had brought. Han slipped in the fact that we needed to sort out Yorkshire, and then we planned it all meaning we don't have to pay to get the train and yay. This left me in a really good mood, and i'm so so excited to go up and see everybody, halfterms gonna' be awesome. ...But then went to singing, and I was being really annoying for some reason but I didn't mean to be. So now i'm back home. Sat on my bed. Watching glee. And thinking about loads of stuff. Thinking about why everything seems to go wrong, why nothing particularly great ever seems to happen to me, why I haven't got a boyfriend, why things go so well one minute and then shit the next, why people talk to you and make you feel amazing about yourself and everything and then suddenly just don't really talk to you any more, why I never seem to know what the hell is going on, why I always feel so shit about myself, why I can't do anythingggg right and just why really. The thing is I haven't got a fucking clue why I feel like that, I don't want to feel like that at all, I wish I was incredibly happy like everyone else with a perfect life, perfect relationship, perfect everything. But not everything can go how you want too I guess. It must be this time of year, that just makes you feeel so crap, and I really do hope it picks itself up and improves cause I don't like this weird mood. Glad everyone else is so happy though. Oh and p.s my brother is a complete arsehole.