Class of 2011.

 

Our near to last day. Ya know what, It's super weird knowing that there's some people that you've known for an amazingly long time that you barely have ever talked to, but you are never going to see them again. It's even weirder that there's some people that you know so well, that have made a huge impact on your life at some point, but you are never going to see them again. But my year are fucking amazing, literally all absolutely incredible people, and I wish whoever is not staying the best of luck I really do. Thank you Class of 2011.

    

Those moments when you catch someone 

looking at you, and you just both hold your 

gaze there for a bit, they are just beautiful.

<3 

"And who do you think you are

Running round leaving scares

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing your love apart

You're gonna' catch a cold 

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are"

pretty smiles make me happy

Pretty smiles

make me

happy.

I fucking hate cancer.

Waterloo road today really made me sadder than it ever has before, it was all about Brain Tumours and telling people things that not many people know. So I thought I would tell you something you don't know about Brain Tumours.

Mark is my dad's best friend ever, they've been bestfriends since school and have always been, I think they were closer than i've ever known anyone to be. He's one of those people that you count as your family, and don't even give it a second think that they aren't, but he was like another dad almost, and has been close to our family since my mum and dad got married. Two years ago, Mark was diagnosed with a Brain tumour, which we found out from one of the worst phone calls I have ever received. He was told that there was no way he was going to get better, because his cancer was too advanced. One of the one things he wanted to do was go on holiday with us, and because he couldn't fly we all went on a cruise for two weeks, and it was possibly one of the best but upsetting times of my life. Getting to spend that much time with someone is amazing, but when you know it could be the last time you see them is the scariest thing in the world. Less than a year after the cruise, Mark died. He was in his forties, had the most amazing wife who he'd only been married to for a few years and a three year old daughter who didn't have a clue what was going on. She didn't know that she was never going to see her dad again. That shouldn't happen to anyone. Not someone like that, not someone who is as amazing as him. He died two years ago to this month, and I miss him so much. I love you Mark.

GCSE'S.

No time to blog! No energy to blog! So here's a very brief sum up of how they have gone so far.

English Paper 1

Part A went kinda shit, because I didn't actually really understand the extract which isn't a bonus, and it was the first exam so I was a bit unsure, but managed to stay reasonably calm, which is surprising for me! But I really enjoyed the creative writing hehe. So that went well.

French Listening

Was really quite difficult, well I say this, but actually it was reasonably ok up until the very last page which was absolutely awful! Couldn't answer a single thing! 

Music

I don't know anything about music theory really, how ever much I revise it, it just doesn't stay in my head! Not too fab. But it's a nice exam, just sitting in a small room with only about twenty other people  just listening to music for an hour, so it's very chilled. I think I did alright though, hopefully.

Philosophy

Well, first paper was good! But that was the parts I was the most confident with anyway, but I found (as well as loads of other people) the second paper was really difficult. The last question was 'Humanity is just on this earth by chance, so we have no purpose' or something along those lines. It was horrible, I had no idea what to write! But it took me the whole  hours and not a minute less to do these papers, which makes me slightly more happy.

English Paper 2

So I didn't start this brilliantly by answering the question about completely the wrong thing, until my teacher came and pointed that out. Otherwise I would have failed. But again, part A was tricky, but seriously enjoyed part B, that is mega sad. But ah well, had to write a lively magazine article about the stress of GCSE's so it was something that was fresh and extremely clear in my mind. 

Anyway, I have just done an hour an a half of going over Paddy Clarke quotes for English lit, this is now my priority! Argh! So scared. But now, I am off for a bike ride to relieve stress. Then i'm off to the pub. Night night xxx

I will soon enough be blogging about my lovely weekend and lovely people and surprisingly well done exams. But right now, i'm excessively stressed out about my music exam tomorrow which I know nothing about, and RE which is just incredibly stressful as it is. Hope things are going well kiddies xxxxx

10 new changes.

Here is a list of things that I am going to change:

- Even thought I am happy most of the time, I want to be happy all the time, and I know it's good to be sad sometimes about somethings, but all in all, I want to be positive. 

- Don't argue with people that mean a lot to me, because that just makes me in a shit mood and upset and it always makes me feel like a horrible horrible person. Which I'm not.

- Make more of an effort to see people or talk to people that I don't see/talk too very often, how ever hard or  little that may be! 

- Only wear mascara and nothing else.

- Stop being jealous of people. Jealousy gets you nowhere! Accept the fact that people change and people that you like don't like you but they like someone else.

- Accept me for me. I look like what I look like, the people in my life like me for who I am, so I definitely should, even if I don't always like me.

- Do as much as I possibly can to do with singing, if that's what I want to do then I bloody well need to pursue it. If I get offered to do something amazing, don't just turn it down cause you think your not good enough, that's a silly mistake I've make too many times.

- Actually try and get the guy I like, I'm always too scared to do anything about it. But that needs to stop really.

- Stop bitching about people! Everyone makes mistakes. And I don't appreciate it when people bitch about me, so I definitely should not do the same! 

- Lastly, make a bigger effort with my family, they are amazing. So I should really show them how amazing they really are.

Shit mood straight to fabulous mood. And why? Two words for you...
Hannah Ssom

woah there

Have you ever got that weird gut feeling, when you have the sudden realisation that you could be in love with somebody and possibly have been for a very long time. This could be interesting.

fishfingers are fab.

So after Nicoles Goal charity concert Friday night, which was lovely, me and Han had planned (as usual) to watch the end of Forest Gump, (which I still haven't seen because Hannah lost her remote control for about seven years), Sherlock Holmes and Inception. This failed as per, because the second we sat down we flopped and couldn't be bothered. But instead we did have a lovely lovely chat about everything and just chilled. Nice to know you have someone who thinks the exact same way that you do. It's her and Tom's five months tomorrow! :OO wow, that's gone super fast! After waking up this morning at abut half ten because Han kept wavering her feet directly in my face, we attempted to do revision, which failed again, and instead we updated her love film list and just fantasised about all the different films that we wanted to watch whilst planning everything we want to do for Brid's 40th, like go to the spa and throw her a surprise party and get her really drunk. About two hours, fifteen fishfingers and tinned spaghetti later, we actually sat down and revised for an hour and a half, I watched all the science videos on GCSE bitesize for the fiftieth time: they are just brill! We then spent our whole life revising maths, well actually I taught Hannah maths, was surprisingly un-tedious up until the end.

Later I came home to a house full of new furniture, so I ran upstairs put my little rosey topshop shorts on and my rimmel london tee, took off all my makeup, grabbed my wonderfully soft blanket, went downstairs, made a hot chocolate and sat down onto the cuuuushty new sofa, which is so so so comfy and decided to watch Nim's Island which I just love. It's mega cute! And it was raining, so just wow. I'm now sat in my bed all snuggled up looking at beautiful pictures and missing loads of beautiful people that I haven't seen in ages, and wandering if i'm actually going to ever actually find a nice guy, some people don't realise how lucky they are!  Night you wonderful, wonderful people X

"The more successful I become, the more I need a man"

She's so beautiful. This video makes me so happy, she looks incredible and sounds just magical. And she's so cute! So utterly disappointed i'm not seeing her at Glastonbury this year, would make my life if I was going. But have a watch of this video, Beyonce Knowles you are amazing! <3 

Laura, won't you give me some time

Yesterday was absolutely fabulous, although extremely tiring. Literally just spent the day listening to pretty music, and drawing this massive totem pole whilst eating Oreos, and for once, it's actually going to plan!! I have it again all of today though, i'm not sure what i'm going to do, 5 hours more and i've almost finished! Uh oh. Bus journey home was hilar, me and Han just whapped on my Ipod and listened to the The Pussycat Dolls and Scissor Sisters and sang and danced the whole way home. At dance later on, we have started doing these really tricky routines, theres this one back exercise, it's so hard on your back, fun though. So now I cannot really move. Fun times! 

Not to self: Record Sophia by Nerina Pallot. I'd forgotton how beautiful this song was!

Master Shifu.

If you start at the bottom and scroll your way up, it's like a little story of the year and a half that me and Hannah have been bestfriends. A year and half. I cannot believe it. How is it even possible to be so amazingly close to someone after a year and a half, I don't quite know how we did it. But we did. It's crazy. Was very tricky picking which photo's to use, as we do have 447 pictures of us together on facebook (discluding the numerous fugly ones which I have happily untagged) Oh she is a beauty that one! <3 

well done Het!

So I completed this task that I set myself, apart from the last hour of English as I have to go and learn song lines for drama (god dammit). But I'm rather pleased that I have done 4 hours today. Without any breaks, apart from shovelling down a wrap and a pear in the space of five minutes, indigestion! Been incredibly healthy today, ate an apple and a passion fruit for breakfast, a wrap and a pear for lunch, and 3 bottles of water! Kapow. Radio 1 has got me through the day of work. But I am now determined to complete this everyday; 1 hour of Maths, 1 hour of English, 30 minutes of either Chemistry/ Physics and 1 hour of another subject, either Music, French, R.E. Then I somehow have to whap in some art here and there! Crazy times, but hey that's GCSE's for you. I suppose the sooner they start, the sooner they will be over though! Cannot wait for the 24th June - my last paper, additional maths. I'm. Going. To. Get. Mashed.

REVISION.

My plan for today, feeling rather motivated for once in my life.

11.30 - 12.30 ART

12.30 - 1.30 MATHS

1.30 - 2.30 ART

2.30 - 3.30 R.E

3.30 - 4.30 ART OR ENGLISH

Cummon' Het, you can do this.