i'm going t be honest, life at the moment is just full of disappointment, being pushed out completely, complete and utter wankers that dont give a shit and just general pooooooooooo.

Stressful.

I had the nicest longest chat with mum today, cause I was so incredibly stressed out. She was stressed too, and it was really sad, because something had happened and she got really upset about it. So she was crying about that, and I was crying. But we had a lovely chat. And now were all coooool! What made me even more stressed was people being wankers and I had a proper music exam that was 40% of my whole music course that i've been doing for two years done in a flash. So with everything else just was so shit. And I have a singing competition thing tomorrow, my family, Smithy and Eve are coming along to watch along with everyone elses friends and parents. Should be nice. Scary though. That's made me more stressed. There is only one way to describe my life right now. Stressful. 

16. A song you hear loads on the radio.

16. Someone like you Adele. It's on the radio all the time, 

but I never get sick of it, Adele is a beautiful beautiful woman. 

And it pisses me off to extremes when people go on about her weight

 cause she clearly isn't mega fat. Shes wonderful. And I want her hair. 

baby baby, i think it's time we move on now

I'm completely in love with this house. And would love to live in it.
It's absolutely amazing. I'm lost for words.

14. A song nobody would expect you to love 15. A song that describes you 16. A song that you used to love but now hate

14. Any Steps song. You see I was always for S Club. But I secretly was a steps fan too

15. Avril Lavigne, Complicated for obvious reasons.

16. Loved Firework, Katy Perry for a tiny bit. Hate hate hate hate hate now.

Friday night was lovely, Edies party. Rather crazy. Lyds got absolutely off her face, me and Katie Tucker drank the night away with wine, then after we had finished 2 bottles between us we decided we would walk to her house to get more. So she rang her mum and said that everyone had given Edies mum wine and we hadn't and felt bad, so we bagged another bottle of wine. Katie and Vel cried loads, mainly Katie. Lydia puked in the tent. I found Edies dog was out with gates onto the road open, so we had to get her back inside. I refused to let Lyd sleep at my house being that fucked, so we told her she was going back to hers. She refused to do that, it took us about half an hour to actually get her out of the garden. Then when we did she sat down on the road. A police car zoomed past. I got scared, remembered I had a bottle of Malibu in my bag. Chucked my bag under a car for 'safe keeping'. Then had to pretend to be on the phone to Lyd's mum so she ran after me and I lead her to her house. Dropped her off. She got in loads of shit. Got my bag, police car came back past, threw my bag under another car. Walked Katie back to her house down the track, Hannah then chucked a nearly full bottle of wine in a bush, that was upsetting. I panicked about having to walk past a police car just incase they stopped us. So i poured a nearly full bottle of malibu into a bush made me cry a little bit. Then me and Han got home and it was so cuushty and warm. That was about as interesting as my weekend got. And now I am sat at home, with a migraine throwing up :) nat nice. Hope your well pumpkinnnnns. x

summertime, and the livin' is easy

blame it on the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol

I have to say - even though I am incredibly tired, I am really excited about tonight. It will be such a lovely break from the shit that's has been going on, and a chance to let my hair down abit and actually relax for once in my hectic life. And I am glad that it's with a group of people that I actually get on with really well, and don't constantly argue with about constant shit. So the plan for tonight is. Get ready at mine with Han, walk to Lydias meet her and Maria, and then do shots, and then go to Edies and just get incredibly drunk and have a great time. I don't know what to wear which is a slight worry, so I am going to leave and find something to wear! Have a nice night kiddies.

P.s i love hannah moss and anna sager.

P.p.s happy birthday edie your wonderful girl!

ooooopsie!

Haven't been fab at this 30 day challenge, heres the ones i've missed.

A song that makes you fall asleep - May it be, Enya, from Lord of the Rings, Han deffo introduced me to itttt, and I love it, it's absolutely beautiful, and I would definitely recommend that you listen to it if you like pretty twinkly thinky songs. 

A song from your favourite band - I have loads and loads of favourite bands, Beyonce, is a definite all time favourite ever ever, for obvious reasons, she is just purely amazing and beautiful and just wow. So gonna' have to go with - Listen. Again, it's really pretty and powerful and amazing. The sort of song that makes you have tingly feelings all down your spine. Yum.

A song from a band you hate - Ndubz, playing with fire. Just what the fuck are Ndubz really.

A song that is a guilty pleasure - Jay Sean - Down. Hehe. Love it loads and loads. Cool Het!

P.s Hi badmood. 

cool.

AH SHIT. Maybe I do only have one leg!

waaa

I thought that I would share my anger and rage with my blog as I am extremely angry and raged. I have a bunch of amazing friends I really do, but why can people be so bitchy? That's what I don't understand. How can you be such a fucking twat to one of your bestfriends? You can't that's the answer. Obviously just pretend to be bestfriends. Infact me and a friend were saying that other day how people start to be nice to you when they want something. And that started to happen, so we were kinda prepared for what has just happened. What I also do not understand is 1) Why do people always put boys/boyfriends before their friends. 2) How can you seriously like someone and have a relationship with them after knowing each other for one week and seeing each other twice. Do not understand this world sometimes. And I am so glad that I am close to the people that I am close to, because I know that they would never do anything like that too me. And I'm so glad that my best friend is Hannah Moss because she is amazing and would never do anything to hurt me or anyone else. Not only is it bad when it happens to you, but it's terrible when something upsetting happens to one of your close friends and you have to sit and watch them be sad, but not quite know what to say to make them feel better, because they just feel like complete and utter shit. I hate girls. They are bitchy and just want to be in a relationship because its 'cool' and they cannot cope without having a boyfriend. Waaaa! Love you Anna Sager. 

Any change, 

even a change for the better,

 is always accompanied by

 drawbacks 

and 

discomforts

A song that you can dance to:
Soljaaaa boyyyy obv.
Deffs know the dance to this song.
And me and Rach are attempting to learn it.
We have our own little arrangement of it.
Its fab.

summers magical

Last night was so lovely <3 Got ready to go out to a party with han ott eed and kate, we had to dress up as a country, so me ott and han went as indian, and kateeee and eed went as red indian. We just chilled outside with everyone really, it was so cold, but lovely. Vodka jelly and Carlsberg. It was just so nice to get our with everyone and have a really good time with my friends, me and amy danced the night awayy by ourselves on this patch of grass that was covered in pretty lights and candles. Letting of chinese lanterns was the most beautiful thing ever, there was fifteen of them, and watching them all float off into the sky that was covered in stars was just amazing. Pretty pretty pretty night. Then today - i'm just by myself. Which is actually surprisingly nice to have a relaxing day, getting loads of art done, and i'm mega motivated today so that's good. Bob Marley is just playing over and over, along with some seriously old music that makes me feel all summery. Weather is beautiful today as well. I cannot wait for summer. The only thing that is missing right now it the beach. Here is a few pictures from last night, loads more will be shown to you lovelies later <3

what ya gonna do with all that junk

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words too

Shut up - Black eyed peas

Yes I proudly know every single word to this song, in fact pretty much every single black eyed peas song woohoo!

close your eyes, give me your hand darling

Day 7 - A song that reminds you of a certain event

Whole again - Atomic Kitten, haha.
About 9 years ago, I was on holiday with my whole family in the South of France, possibly the most eventful holiday of my life for many reasons:

1) My brother almost drowned

2) My whole family almost died on their flight over to France

3) My dad got really ill

4) We got hit by a car and thrown into a ditch whilst driving along.

Crazy times. Luckily nobody actually died. But anyway, all 30 of us stayed in this big house with a beautiful garden and willow trees and a swimming pool. And we all decided that we would have a talent show, giving ourselves one day to practice it. As well as choosing to sing teenage dirtbag, we chose to do our own arrangement of whole again by atmoic kitten, all my cousins who are boys dressed up as girls, but we were all only 6 to 11 ish years old, so we all found it hilarious when they came out with oranges down their tops to look like boobs and really short dresses on. That was such a funny night, my family literally are the best. <3

if your from africa, why are you white?

I just found this, and it made me laugh so much, so thought I would share it with whoever you may be that is reading this shit that I continue to write. I thought I might also tell you that my days are actually getting a little bit better, and today at lunch was so so hilarious with Anna. We just sat and make horrible jokes about people because we were in a jealous and annoying mood, and then we played the 'Would you still be friends with me if I looked like this' game. It was alot of fun. <3

Love is a beautiful thing

i got two tickets to iron maiden baby

Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere.

Teenage dirtbag is definitely the first one to come into mind. 

I took Han up to meet my family in Sussex, as it was my aunties 40th birthday party. Little did i know how mint this night was going to be. Think Han was in for a little bit of a surprise when i introduced her to the 43290482903842 people in my family. But yeah, it looked all pretty, with a yurt covered in fairy lights and absolutely full to the brim with alcohol. So yeah, me and Han got absolutely smashed after drinking far too much mars bar vodka, smirnoff, bacardi and wine. But it was fab, surprisingly the first time me and Han had ever drunk together ever, and there was the hottest guy ever at the party, he was 16, blonde with lovely blue eyes and he was Canadian <3. Nom. Also met a seriously hilar couple, who were off there heads, and this 50 year old guy Billy was so funny. We took some great videos of him. "GOODBYE BLACK BOYYY!!" And then later on, Han chundered everywheeeeere! And i had to wait up all night checking she wasn't dying. Anyways, the reason this song reminds me of this party is because we were in the Marquee busting some crazy dance moves when teenage dirtbag came on. We started going crazy with my uncle and were absolutely screaming our heads off at this song. It was such a brilliant night. 

                                           

Day 05.

A song that reminds you of someone:

We no speak americano - Reminds me of my 

auntie Mel when we were in Fueteventura on

 holiday, that was amazing. I wanna go back -

It was amazing.

The saturdays - Higher and Oasis - Stay young

completely remind me of the slightly less talented

FloRida , Alex Taylor. Miss him like.

day 04

A song that makes you sad:

Someone like you - Adele

or Concrete angle. 

The title of this music challenge today completely makes sense. I'm in such a bad mood today, and I hate it when you talk to someone who's usually amazing to talk to about things, but now are shit, and everything has changed. With everyone actually, and i'm not a fan of these new changes. And when someone tells you that 'nothing seems to be going right for you' it really hits you that they are right, but brilliant, really needed someone else to tell me everythings shit, thanks so much. Twat. Anna sager though, you've been a blessing recently you have <3 Thank you.

top weekend

day 03

A song that makes you happy
it's a tie between
Train - hey soul sister
or Robbie Williams live lounge cover of humans.


cheer me up so so so much.

day 02

least favourite song:

like a g6. 

oh my fucking god hate it.

today was amazing, had a lovely meal with the ladies in wagamamas, eventually fell in the love with the waiter. waiting at the train station met a group of hot westbury guys and they kept jumping in pictures with us, and then we got chatting and had loads of pictures with poilce officers, was mint. they then decided to get the train back with us, and didn't care where they ended up. we realised that it was going to westbury anyway so they were safe. but officially love them loads. they were hilar. one of the most lovely evenings i have had in a long time. thanks girlies, huge love for you <33333

day 01.

Your favourite song.

Complicated - Avril Lavigne.

even though this song makes me really sad, it was played at my brothers funeral, i love it. and i chose it myself to be played at his funeral, and it just makes so much sense.

<3

30 day song challenge.

ok, so everyones doing this now, either the writing one, song one or photo one. and i like the idea of the song one, so i'm going to try to complete that!

Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

smiley smiley things

don't you just love finding old messages that really make you smile.


so there it was, hett's birthday. 364 days and about 5 mins and youll be old enough to drive! dece that innit, hope you had a lovely day, and remember now that your legal dont go shagging anything with two legs! muahaha jk, i know you wouldnt say no to a one legged. LOL JK, i know you wont, mega love het ♥


love dat kid.

I hate change

pretty fields and han

today was hilarious. just me and han at lunch getting pissed off with everyone and making jokes out of everything. was absolutely top notch. deffs forced her to go on a massssive walk with me after school, so got really warm cause it was so fucking cold and brought her round a little 'persuasive treat' of diames and belly jabies. we walked like 5 miles, and just chilled and talked about loads, and laughed and took funny pictures of us jumping and in funny mirrors that made your legs look really short and stumpy. and it was just lovely, pretty fields  and han.

lars larsen barker.

no, infact what made me smile the most today was seeing lars and getting the biggest and nicest hug ever from him, and he smelt gorgeous for the record. it's nice to know you can remain so close with someone even though you barely ever see them or speak to them. love him loads.

don't worry, be happy

Wednesdays are usually shit, but today was surprisingly the opposite, infact this week in general has been pretty top. I've had this urge from monday to just work really hard, and listen and learn and revise. And it's super weird cause I usually cannot be bothered. Me and Lyd are doing all these pilates classes, and aerobics and spinning, im so buzzed, and that will totally motivate me to work as well. Determined to do well in these pooey exams. But back to Wednesday - started off really cold, but i did something productive in art which made everything a lot better as usually i just sit there for an hour and a quarter singing pussy cat dolls or something crazy. Han was in another funny mood today, so that was nice. Just pretty much laughing all day. And i got PSHE sortedddd so i now know where im heading with my project. Lunch was nice just chilled, and laughed with han clud and tabbage. We kept asking habbage awkward questions, claudie popped out with 'would you consider getting a huge tattoo of hannahs face on your cock?' big lol. But anyways, came home on the bus which was average, ruthie had mahe 'whoopie cakes' (wtf?) and gave me a mini one i had earlier aked her to make me, that was yummm. I came home into my new extremely tidy bedroom, switched on the docking station and just chilled to ellie goulding and bon iver and adele for 2 hours and revised chemisty, yay, some revision finally done! Oh and i've stopped biting my nails, and now they are growing and im happy, and i can paint them pretty colours, planning on keeping this up for as long as poss as mum promised a manicure at the end hehehheeee. I am going to go and watch some more friends now, and chat. Love ya bud.

Memory Lane.

Looking through all these pictures made me realise how fucking amazing my life has been. I really shouldn't ever moan about anything, because i'm so lucky, i have the most amazing family and friends ever! And i'm just so incredibly happy.